I've got goals to reach!

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So, since starting my fitness journey back up again I have literally been working out every day. Like you may have already read in previous post, I started with yoga. That was a perfect place to start for me, just to get the body used to moving! After that I started a more intense program. I have been loving it & I have loved pushing myself. Have I WANTED to workout every single day? NO, absolutely not. There will be days where there's no motivation. Where you try to convince yourself that you're tired and need a rest; and then you'll definitely start back up again another day. But, that is because doing nothing is always easier than creating change and becoming better and stronger. So for me it is important to remember why I started my journey. Having that WHY in the back of my mind is encouragement to keep going! Has it been easy for me? No, definitely freakin not!

    I have a love/hate relationship with the scale. First, I love it because it has been telling me that I have been losing weight! Which, is always exciting when you're overweight and you're working on your health. When you continue to work and push, though, and the numbers don't keep dropping like you think in your head that they should, that's discouraging. Heck, just yesterday I got on that scale and it showed me the same number. I think maybe it was like 0.2 pounds lower, but when you know that you have been giving your all during every workout (including your entire weight in sweat dripped) that seems like nothing. There was a split second when I saw that number and I'm not even one to ever cuss (don't ask why; I don't even know why) but in my head I was just like: FUCK IT! Then I thought, giving up now just because changes aren't happening faster isn't going to get me closer to where I want to be! Giving up is what got me to this place! If this crap was easy everyone would be fit! Everyone would be healthy and so strong! You know what, though, nothing worth having ever comes easy. Am I willing to commit to myself and keep going? You bet your butthole I am!



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